Dan told me an unbelievable story about why he doesn't drink. his grandfather was from serbia and was a horrible alcoholic. He used to abuse his wife and his children hated and feared him. When he lost his legs to gangrene in the war he couldn't chase her and beat her anymore so he got a long whip and would use that. Dan's fateher said he would never get over the sound of that whip cracking through the house as he used it on his mother. When I wondered why she couldn't stay out of reach dan said she might be able to stay away fromt he whip but not the bullet. Sorry for the grim story it's just that it reminds me that no matter how bad things might seem to me, or to have been in my ended relationship it could never have beena as bad as that, God that poor woman.
I really have to go get some sleep and peeeeee. I want to go to the market and buy cake. But I don't want to be fat anymore. Hmmm market and cake
or lose weight and be thinner. Which should I choose? I think the cake will win today.
Oh I got a call from a casting director asking for tape of me. so I ahd to call him back as my manager persona and pretend to be frustrated that my clinet (myself) hasn't gotten her tape to me yet. He said, "Oh don't worry that's not that uncommon, we have a lot fo people in the same position, the director will just go voer the headshots then and let us know next week." It's nice to be wanted once in a while when I've been doing absolutely nothing for my career.
I like that Angelina jolie has a tatoo around her arm that says, "A prayer for the wild at heart kept in cages." It's a Tennessee Williams quote. I wish so much that I could be in another Tennessee Williams play, those women all have such similar insanity and passion to my own. I can relate to them so well.
I also wish that an angel would descend from the heavens and help me learn how to design a web page wiht a couple of live cams and live journal embedded in it.
Okay that's it, I go now.
love you guys,