October 19th, 2001

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Oh God, I feel so bad right now. I was just listening to my, uh, radio, because you all know I'm a typical artist/creative gal, and I think a certain degree of voyeurism goes along with that, so here I am listening for diversion, or entertainment, or a glimpse of reality, I don't know, and I hear this man, in such a distressed emotional tone, telling his ex that he's so upset she won't let him see his son. He said, "How can you do this to me? After everything I've done for you, you turn around and then won't let me see my son?" I couldn't hear her response, but then he said, in this panicked, upset voice, "No! No! I have to talk to you now!...because I like to sleep with my son, I like to give him a bath..." and then it cut off. It's just that he sounded so pained, and plaintive, he sounded so genuine, and desperate. I felt so sorry for him.

Being a single Mom with an ex who could basically care less about those kinds of things, I was just kind of thrown and moved to hear this from the other side. Then I felt shitty about listening to his pain, and I imagined her being a kind of gorgeous, cold-hearted, LA, man-eating kind of gal, who would use their child to get more and more money from her ex. I've met people like this, this is the uglier other side of the coin. Maybe I'm just projecting, who knows what he may have done to her, or their son, but he really sounded so desperate to be able to be with and love his son. Poor poor people. What a sad world some of us are creating.

Okay well, I'm putting up some more cat pictures, be back in a few minutes.

Love you guys,
Your LJ pal wacqui
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Help!!! Money troubles!!!! and Pictures of the Kitties



I am really really really freaked out about money right now. I was just calling to check my balance and I was shocked to learn I'm overdrawn and my check for seven hundred and sixty dollars to Beverly Loan, where I've had my best jewelry in hock for a few years now, bounced. If I don't come up with the money ASAP I am going to lose our silver, my grandmother's diamond earrings and pin, my Father's fraternity pins, his favorite uncle's sapphire ring, and his Father's pocket watch. I don't know what I'm going to do.



I had to borrow money against anything of value a while ago when I needed money for an emergency vet bill. Now I've bounced the check and don't know where I'm going to get the money. I'm going to have to hustle to sell stuff on eBay, but even then I'd never get the money in time to save my things. So scary. If there is anyone out there with a spare eight hundred dollars that they'd like to send to a frightened Jacqui (yeah right, sigh) please direct those funds to cdelalune@aol.com via Paypal, or via a fast flying angel, whatever method you prefer. I always think it helps to put it out to the universe, I mean I'm sure there are a lot of people way more deserving than I am, but it surely can't hurt to ask. Big huge sigh.



I think my only alternative is to go beg my Mother, which is going to be soooo frightening and debilitating. She'll play with me like a cat plays with a mouse, she'll torture me, and tell me off, and then who knows what she'll choose to do. God I'm so sick of living like this. I know it looks like I have this easy life, but it's never really been that way, honestly. I have so many people who depend on me and I'm having to say no to people I care about, which is so tough.



My Latin friends have this thing they do called a condina, where they put money in a big pot and one person gets it every two weeks. So lets say there were ten people putting a hundred dollars in every two weeks, someone would get a thousand dollars today and then in two weeks someone else would get a thousand while the first person would begin paying their hundred back to the pot. I always thought it sounded like a kind of weird form of banking but boy would I love to hook up with one now.

PS: If you come by my actual Live Journal and click the cat link at the top you can see this pictures at their full resolution, my image hosts make the pictures look crappier to save space, boo on them. I'm always looking for a better way to do this, anyone know how?



Here's Lui watching me take a bath, although it kind of looks like he might be watching TV.



And this is what Coco looks like when he's about to jump on your shoulder. He loves to jump on people's shoulders!
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Beau just showed me this site for the band he's been listening to every day. I know so many of their songs by heart now just from listening to him sing them when he's wearing his walkman. Anyway the site is really well designed and I thought you guyz would enjoy it. Especially the band member's bedrooms. It looks like a lot of it is still in the process of being built but it's so worth a look. To get to the rooms you need to click on gorillaz cinema, then follow the arrow left from there and you'll find a scrolling menu bar that will take you to their bedrooms and computers, super great design. Stacy needs to see this.

gorillaz.com

Hugs,
Jac
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Oh my God!!!!!!!! Someone (someone very very wonderful) actually sent fifty dollars to me with Paypal. I feel like crying, I only dreamed that someone would care enough to help. It's the kind of thing I would do in a second when I have money but not the sort of thing that happens in the world that often. I love you soooo much!!!!

XOXOXO