November 1st, 2001

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Thanks for all of your support you guys. I really appreciate it. I know I have a lot of animal family and I'm bound to suffer through loss more often than most people, but that doesn't lessen the pain of losing someone I love. She was really special and I will always miss her.

I still have to write to you about Halloween and I have some images to put up, but mostly I just wanted to check in and let you know how I did on my commitments this week.

1.) I mailed my packages to my two package gang friends. I was seriously behind on this and was feeling so guilty about it. I had been feeling paralyzed and unable to get beyond my perfectionism and procrastination. I was feeling as if nothing I did would be good enough so I finally just made myself put what I'd already gathered together and sent it off with love. I may need to quit the package gang until I can work through this and am in a better place financially.

2.) I finally mailed ana her loong overdue birthday present and went through the same, not enough, process, sigh.

3.) I wanted to send Ashley her apartment magazine and the Best of La Weekly but I left her address at home and will have to grab myself by the scruff of my neck and try to do it again tomorrow. I really don't understand why I am so phobic about errands and mailing things.

4.) I photographed, edited and listed two things on eBay. This was a huge accomplishment for me, but since no one has bid on my first listing I'm feeling a wee bit depressed and defeated but am working through it.


Little French Compact

5.) I pulled off a good Halloween for everyone even though I've been feeling really weirdly sick and under the weather. I got the yard and driveway done just in time. We had more than enough candy. Normally we run out because I like to give out a huge handful to each kid, because they love it and it makes me feel so happy to be able to be generous. I got Beau's costume together and even made it to the Halloween parade at his school and took pictures. Even though by Halloween night itself I was sweating and wanted nothing more than to just collapse in bed, I managed to be social and friendly and even entertained my Mother. Well at least I hope she was entertained, more about that later.

I'll have to check back though my journal entries to see what else I committed to. Okay well, that's about it everyone, I love you guys and hope you all had Happy Halloweens.

Big warm hugs and kisses,
Jacqui