November 11th, 2003

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Thank You, Mary Engelbreit Follow Up, HGTV Country Style

A Thank You Note To All Of My Live Journal Friends and Readers



You know it's funny, one of my better qualities is that despite the fact that I know I am unique and have a lot to offer people, I am always surprised and humbled by anyone's interest in me, or by anyone's desire to be my friend. I just rushed off that little note yesterday about how frustrated I was, (frustrated and exhausted), that after all of my work, I was unable to share this little photo album of Halloween imagery with all of you.

When I write about things that are happening in my life, but am too busy to come and post or share photos of them, (to say nothing of the fact that I want to give back so much more to all of you than I am able), I am keenly away of my absence here and I feel that I owe it to you to give back in whatever way I can. I never expect or take your comments for granted and I am always surprised when I get them.

You are all so kind but I can't help but feel like a mama chicken (or is that hen?) who isn't taking good enough care of her Live Journal chicks. I'm so incredibly grateful for everyone's unwarranted support here, I feel as if I can never ever repay all of you for everything you've given me -- I don't even think I could adequately put into words how much having all of you come and read my journal and being my community of pals means to me, and I know that I don't give enough back, so the least I figure I can do for all of the good and wonderful people who befriend me here is to share photos of the things I'm writing about so everyone can feel a little more included in my life.

In my ideal dream version of my life there are three more of me to get it all done and one of them has enough time to sit here at the computer for hours everyday, not browsing eBay auctions, answering phones or being distracted by anything, but just sitting here reading every one of my friends entries and pouring out love and support to all of you. I know that's impossible but I want to achieve at least some tiny little fraction of this. You know what I mean? An occasional friendly comment or response from me doesn't seem like too much to ask. But when you have more than a hundred really terrific, and I do mean terrific, LJ pals, it is so hard to do, which is why I'm always telling you guys to come on over and drag me by the scruff of my cyber neck to read or comment on posts that are important to you and that you don't want me to miss.

I don't know if it's my semi-recently diagnosed Attention Deficit Disorder, or my chaotic life, (which is probably a moot point as it's a 'Which came first, the chicken or the egg?' kind of thing anyway), that makes it so hard for me to create order or discipline enough so that I can carve out at least an hour a day to read and respond to my friend's journals, but whatever it is, it's so hard to do. I try so hard to click on my friend's list whenever I can so that I can at least read some of your entries but what are the odds that you will be the one who happened to post at that moment when I read about four or five pages worth?

I'm so very aware of how unfair this is, to be lucky enough to have people reading my journal, but to not be able to return the favor in the way that I would like to, (or feel that I should), which brings me back to the point of why it was important to me to create this photo album, and why I got up super early today, (when I have a crew of TV people coming in just four days to shoot our undecorated, cat-peed home -- that we are scurrying around to make beautiful in time for the shoot), in order to make another mini version of the first one; I owe this to you.

It seems like the least I can do for all of the support -- the love and the kindness that you have all sent my way -- and I really feel it, I do, even if you just read my journal and never comment, even if your name is just one of the many names that sit amidst the enormous pile of pals I have here and you never even read my journal. Your simply adding me to your friend's list here is enough and I consider it an honor and am more grateful than any of you will ever know!

Conversely I want you to know that I am always thinking of all of you and am here for you in my own limited way, I think of all of you as much more than distant disconnected computer world friends; I think of you as being here beside me in my heart, and a part of me is there beside all of you as you read this, or not, and as you go about your daily lives -- I am loving you no matter how absurd this may sound, I really, truly, madly, deeply do ; ) and that last bit was for anyone who may be as nuts about this movie as I am, sniff, sniff, and will get the reference.

Big loving hugs from your grateful friend,
Jacqui
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PS: This is a little follow up letter that appeared in Mary Engelebreit's Home Companion and chances are I wouldn't have seen it if it weren't for my good, but also terribly neglected, friend and neighbor Aleida, who kindly pointed it out to me. I am so touched that someone saw the article and was so inspired that they copied me.

PPS: Even as I am creating this post I am talking on the phone with a new friend who needs help finding a doctor who will accept Medical for revisionary weight loss surgery and I'm trying to figure out how to visit another friend's sister who has to have a hysterectomy tomorrow morning. Yesterday I dragged myself to my storage unit in order to bring home a bunch of framed art to loan to my friend Susan whose home I convinced HGTV to come and shoot, at the same time they're coming to LA to shoot our house, and now I am on the phone with the best tutor, (and person), in the world, Louise Copeland, talking about Beau's new tutoring classes and everything else under the sun, and Irma has just arrived and I can hear my naughty runaway cat Harry meowing under my window which means that he squeezed past their feet when they came in the front door, and since I am one of the few people who can catch me I need to run downstairs and fetch him out of the garden before he gets hit by a car or eaten by a hungry coyote, and today we will have not one, not two, but SEVEN kids here because it's Veteran's day, and all four of Irma's little munchkins will be here, and Esther is here to help get things in order for the TV deal so both of her kids are here with her as well, and so it goes...

PPS: After much busynessness I am back and had to tell you that, inspired by my wonderful new Persian friends -- I have so much to tell you about this -- I'm sitting here eating pistachios and pomegranate seeds -- I don't swallow the pomegranate seeds, that would kill my stapled up stomach and intestines. Sadly their wonderful tea that they so kindly offer whenever I visit and that they gave me to make here at home, is upsetting my messed up bladder, (I have Interstitial Cystitis, will the health fun never end)? It's just so cool that I can still find food that is fun to eat, tastes good, and doesn't upset my delicate newly reconstructed insides, but that is a hell of a lot healthier than say Captain Crunch cereal, Entenman's, or Krispy Kreme (sp?) doughnuts. I guess I shouldn't have had to have bariatric surgery to learn this but I did. I finally have been forced to learn that I feel better when I eat food that is closer to having just come from the earth.
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Veteran's Day

I was just over at Duane's journal and he mentioned his feelings of respect for people in the armed services and I realized that I hadn't said anything, hadn't weighed in with my feelings of respect and support for our military men and women, and especially for our veterans.

All day today the old bomber squadrons have been flying patterns over our house. The sound of the old planes scares me. It rattles the windows and it rattles my soul. Sometimes I think it might have something to do with some past life I may have led because I can't understand why I should feel such fear when I hear them. I actually felt like calling the airport and complaining and then I remembered why there were so many vintage planes in the air and felt differently. I was moved.

Today is a holiday where we are meant to celebrate bravery, remember and honor lost loved ones, and thank our heroes but no one in my family or in the world around me said one word about it. I hate war. I'm basically a pacifist, but I am able to separate out the people from the politics and see these men and women who put their lives on the line, for a cause that may or may not be just, as heroic. My Father was a veteran. I feel tremendous respect for what he and his generation lived through, how courageous and self sacrificing they were.

Last night I was over at my new friends' house. I love these people, the Sartippours, they're from Iran, and in such a short time we've become good friends. This has never happened to me before, that I bonded with people so quickly. At least I don't think so. I really care about them and would do anything for them. But anyway, last night I had dinner there like I have been doing for the past three nights or so, and I was speaking with Atar, my new girlfriend Atra's husband, and I wanted to know more about his life in the military because he had mentioned it before. He was a tank commander in the Iran Iraq war. He told me about a time when his whole unit were in a town and surrounded by the enemy. Then he told me, (and we have all heard sad stories like this before), that when he would walk among the dead, the enemy dead, he would see their mementos, their letters and family photos and feel compassion for them. He said, "War is terrible," and I agree with him.

Atar said that the best movie he had ever seen about war, the only one that had really captured the way it actually felt to him, was Private Ryan. I told him that I had never been as moved and horrified by any film as I had been by the first fifteen minutes of that film. I remember sitting in the theatre with my mouth open and tears pouring down my face for the entire opening sequence, the beach assault. I asked him if he had seen Band of Brothers and he hadn't, so as soon as I make a little money I'm going to order it for him from Amazon. Anyway I couldn't sign off without saying something; God bless all of you out there fighting for us, God bless all of you who wait here at home for your loved ones to return, and God bless everyone who has ever known the horrors of war, or given service to our country. It may not be PC or liberal but it's how I feel.

Love you guys,
Jacqui

PS: Stalag 17 is on. I've always loved this movie and I loved Hogan's Heroes too.
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Borrowed with thanks from Colubra who borrowed it from Aine who borrowed it from Lumiaglitters.

Pick your birth month and then strike through anything that doesn't fit.

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.
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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but those not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
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MARCH:
Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
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APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their luver can see.
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MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
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JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
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JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
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SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive.Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
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OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
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NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
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DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Here's Mine;
MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. (At least I don't think I am). Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. (I'm not so sure about this one) Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.


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