The problem here is that it isn't easy to find someone who loves animals enough to want to spend long days cleaning up after them for 350.00 (cash) a week. I also need someone to cook and clean and run errands. Beau and I are bilingual, so someone who only speaks Spanish is fine with us. We really need someone to live in and be willing to work odd hours, but I gave in and hired Saida who won't stay nights because the trade off was her driving for us. Now she says she can't drive anymore because her license has expired and she is afraid to try to renew it with her fake social security card. I don't want to let her go, she needs this job, despite her casual attitude towards it. Plus I just hate going through the whole interview process. It's so grueling and stressful.
I'm also dealing with an issue that's come up for me with a friend, and I can't talk about it here, because he/she reads my journal. If you're thinking it's you, it isn't, because this person is so incredibly selfish it wouldn't even occur to them to care. Then again maybe they would because it seems like the only time they get interested is when there is some kind of negative charge that draws their attention. I'm so burnt out and hurting over this. I've been such a good friend too, I deserve better, but asking for it makes him/her just push you further away. I've invested so much in this relationship, but I've been pulling away and distancing myself for a while now, so maybe I'll just keep on doing that. It's sad because we have sooo much in common and I really love him. Sucks!
Growth, growth, growth. I promised myself this year would be all about growth. Gotta let go sometimes, even when it hurts. I've done a lot of letting go in my life, maybe I need to get better at it.
