You can't imagine how hard this decision was for me. Imagine someone who you've lived intimately for a year, who you know has lied and cheated you but who you feel sorry for because you think she just does these things out of accustomed desperation, someone who isn't the world's brightest person, someone you love, but who everyone in your life wants you to boot, begging you for her job, for just two more weeks to prove to you that she won't lie or be lazy anymore and knowing that if you give in you'll never be able to let her go. She said, (in Spanish) please Jacqui, for my children, open your heart, your heart, your heart, please, please. I am so devastated, I want to throw up. I hate myself. Now I'm putting my son to bed way too late so he's going to be even more tired than he was today tommorrow and my boyfriend told me to take a walk. Life sucks.